Help me. She wants to tell you that.
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To: Dr. L.
I can't move forward, be okay because eventually everything is going to open up and I can't let this happen!
I don't want her to know.
I can control things so they don't get out of hand. I have always succeeded.
When I was 8 years old I saw a conference with my school on drugs and their effects. I checked it so it wouldn't dive into it. I understood the dos and don'ts to protect myself, to protect her.
She won't be able to do it on her own, she's a shy, sluggish beast. She can't take care of her daughters properly without me and without someone at least one person telling her what to do. She needs this or she will go mad and sink. She is incapable. Everyone saw it. If we don't tell it what to do and how to do it, it is lost, it no longer exists, it is empty.
His daughters need me. The path you suggest I don't want. It's bad. Bad for her.
I refuse to let her know or understand anything. They protected us saved. They are our family, they love us. They would never hurt us! And they didn't.
They were so nice. He was a father to me. Mine did not care about me I did not exist in his eyes I was transparent. While he only saw me he loved me he spoke to others about me he gave me so many compliments
Thanks to him I had a great life that my parents would never have given me! !!
They are poor beasts
It's me who controls everything. And without me you won't be able to do anything.
I am the strongest and I will never trust you. You are from the outside world.
This world is as it has been described to me, full of selfishness of injustice of mistreatment of violence of coldness of indifference ...
She will fail as I have been told. She will end up mad alone without anyone like the homeless. It will end up on the streets or in prison. She will have lost everything. And she will go to hell to pay for her faults.
Is this what you want?
Shouldn't you help?
If she remains well behaved, if she respects the rules and is very obedient, she will have a place, a big family to love her, all her dreams will come true.
Don't make it all fail.
With him, I was recognized as intelligent, he saw in me as in a book. He took me for the main roles of the shows he accepted that I learn music with his children he took me on a trip ... I would never have done all that without him !!
This is my father, my family. I owe him gratitude for all the love he gave me. He didn't have to choose me. He could have taken anyone else. But he chose me.
Anyway even if she understands or knows, no one will believe her. We will say that it is a madwoman and a liar that she is disturbed psychopath and that she is jealous of him and his family. That she wants to destroy the only good thing in this world, a family that does so much for god and this lost and mad world. She doesn't have the right to do evil, that would be very, very bad. She would go to hell. God would curse her!
All the saints who protect the community the guardian angels the providence ... all would be against it and would render it a hundredfold in misfortune for the harm it would do.
Her life would be destroyed, she would be banished forever from her family's community.
She would be absolutely alone with the people out there who are selfish bad unhealthy.
No one would be interested in her. God would send his wrath on him. The earth would open under her feet and as for Bernadette she would see with her eyes the hell under her feet and would be dragged there by the devil and his demons.
That way she is safe and well.
You can't know how hurting how torn I am
I am so dead so torn that the pain is no longer pain. It is beyond. I am with my deceased twin sister.
Everything they said is done.
Every time they prayed for something it was done. Everything they asked God for is done. God obeyed them. Me God does not listen to me. God does nothing for me.
My babies died because God punished me for my bad thoughts for my accusations. My babies will die if I continue. God always obeys them. They are all powerful.
My father had a lot of illnesses and died. My brother is dead. Because they criticized. They wouldn't have done it, they would still be alive.
If I say something, more deaths will happen through my fault. My babies will die. My mother, my sister will die. This is what happens every time.
Jade didn't die because I repented. We should both have died. All this blood ... I prayed so much to Saint Philomena as they told me !!! I begged so much, implored not to die, that my little girl was not left alone !!
If they had wanted I would be dead. They didn't do it because I was nice
I took a bad path. Misfortunes will happen through my fault. I will destroy the good. Demons are tempting me. And it shouldn't be.
Everything is my fault. It was I who looked for it. I wanted it. It's my bad background the demons in me that caused all this.
I don't have the right to blame them for anything.
I am bad at fault.
If I am unhappy and if I bring unhappiness around me, it is only me that I can blame.
They're right. They are always right.
Stop looking. We must not.
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