I hardly sleep anymore. I am overcome by anguish sadness ...
The urge to give up
I spend my time trying to keep myself busy by constantly changing my activity
They want to transmit I feel it but I was scared to death
Parts are screaming that they don't wanna know
I am lost, between 2 worlds ...
I try to draw a diagram of my troop but I cannot.
I can only find 9 names:
Adults: Mom, anger, servant, paper, court
Teenager: Jacques, confession, Jeff
Child: christine
And the control parts
Are each contrary will personalities or could it be smaller?
Why don't I just have 2 personalities?
Why is it so blurry?
Why don't they have real names mine?
How can I get this over?
And even the adulthood, teenager and child ages seem wrong or too general to me.
I feel like I have false names.
The one who loves Jeff and thinks of him and wants him to come back seems very selfish immature and has not the slightest memory with him.
The one who has memories of moments with Jeff did not show up.
The paper parts are kinds of robots but do not have the knowledge to know it. Where are the parts that made the studies learned? I have knowledge that is blown to me but I am unable to explain it. I don't remember my lessons ...
Mom parts
I do not have the memories of my daughters' childhood. Where are these memories?
I have the impression of being deceived, manipulated, put in the blur on purpose to hide the absence of the silence of the real parts that hold the memories.
Where are they?
Is it normal to have so many blurry parts of life?
How can I get over it?
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