07/10/2018

I do not understand.

You can't be good and bad, there are bound to be borders that don't exist. Its bad background must also affect my daughters. One way or another.

They are half me. He hated me as deeply as he could. It is a beast, an inhuman machine. How could he love them? How could he rationalize and put up barriers when he was able to go so far with me without ever questioning himself?

I'm not like him.

I am not a monster and I experience contradictions how would he be different?