I sleep.
Everything is calm. My body is calm.
Scritch scritch scritch ... A little noise. Something in my head. I hear it. Like a little caress, like a little touch. The sound of a mouse.
Scritch scritch scritch ...
What is that ? I start to listen.
Scritch scritch scritch. Frouch frouch frouch ....
It's getting closer! The rustling is louder, faster, more insistent ...
I begin to hear, words, voices ....
"I'm afraid", "death", "danger" ...
The little noise is also moving in my stomach. It ties up.
The little noise travels through my heart, it accelerates its beating.
The little noise travels through my muscles, they tighten.
The little noise of mice turns into a frantic gallop, a herd of wild beasts, a thirsty horde of darkness and death ...
Gallops gallops gallops ... To the rhythm of my beating heart, to the rhythm of my breathing, to the rhythm of my body ...
Galloping is a wave, a hurricane that carries me away and overwhelms me.
The whisperings have become cries, howls, tears.
The invisible mouse has a face, a monstrous beast full of teeth that cut, full of claws that lacerate ...
"Fear, fear, fear", "death, death death", danger, danger, danger "," suffering, suffering, suffering "sing and scream the voices that cry ...
One minute. One minute say the others!
Wait!
Silence. Everything stops in the body. Thought freezes. The heart stops. There is silence.
NO ! I don't want to feel that way! I do not want to die. I do not want to suffer.
Do not worry. We are here. We will not abandon you! We manage !
Slowly, inside, doors close. The long hallways strewn with stone pavements are emptied. The procession disperses. Groups are formed, hands are linked, shoulders and bodies are entwined, taken away ... Very gently ...
We are here. You are no longer alone! Come !
Calm returns.
The body goes out for a walk. There, through the eye window, someone is calling. Come ! Come see how beautiful it is!
It's fall. Reds, yellows, browns, greens ... Nature is magnificent ... Come say the others! Come see how beautiful it is!
Sobs escape from the mouth. Tears roll down my cheeks. Sighs evacuate the anguished beats.
We have the choice ! One can choose to suffer and be afraid or to see only calming things. We are strong! We have already done it!
We can forget. You can't see. We may not know. We can not listen.
Each and everyone has their role. Take place. Do your job!
Together we are strong, together we will survive. Together we will get there. We have already done it!
No longer think. Only think about the next minute, the next hour. What are we doing ? What do you want to do ?
Draw? Listen to music? To sleep? To write ? Read? Take a walk? To do the housework ?
The future does not exist. Tomorrow does not exist. Thinking about tomorrow means hearing the little mouse again. Thinking about tomorrow is releasing the hurricane. Tomorrow does not exist.
Make lists. Write down the course of the day on a piece of paper. Listen to relaxation music and focus on breathing, inhaling, blowing, inhaling, blowing ....
At some point you will have to walk, look at the leaves of the trees, breathe in, breathe, inhale, breathe ...
Clean and store, it will give the impression of controlling, inhaling, blowing, inhaling, blowing ...
Shopping, everything will be tidy and orderly, inspire, breathe, inspire, breathe ...
Classify the papers, check that everything has been done correctly, inspire, breathe, inhale, breathe ...
Pet cats and cuddle them, inspire, blow, inspire, blow ...
All the other thoughts will have to be cut, obscured, inhaled, inhaled, inhaled, inhaled ...
Sleeping also allows you to soothe, inspire, breathe, inspire, breathe ...
We must not shout, we must not cry, we must not scream or we will be overwhelmed, we will no longer be able to control anything!
Inspire, breathe, inhale, breathe ...
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