It's very scary and at the same time it's a relief to finally hear those voices.
It is as if all these years I had cloistered and walled them in silence.
Suddenly hearing them now distinctly is a liberation as if suddenly I gave them the right to exist.
But it's scary! Invasive ...
I must learn to dialogue and understand them.
They always have been, but I rejected them.
I don't know how to explain this ambivalence to you. ..
They are grateful relieved ...
But I'm afraid of being rejected by the outside world now what are there to be judged. ..
I feel jubilation and fear.
They have so much to say that sometimes I hear a constant hubbub in my head full of voices .... it's exhausting!
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